We all have needs, desires, and wishes. Clothing, shelter and heat are among our most basic needs. Most of us have a desire and a wish for those things to give us comfort. Our heart’s desire may be for upgraded comforts or a totally different kind of life. I know many Christians who believe that praying for “things” or wealth is wrong. I hear people say that wealth causes sin. The Bible, however, is full of millionaires: Abraham, Moses, Solomon, David, Joseph, the list goes on. Wealth builds and opens the doors to churches, schools, and museums. There is no sin in having wealth. It is the lack of wisdom in the use of the wealth tool that creates problems. Money, comforts, and things are all just tools. The use of the tools is what makes all the difference. A carpenter can use a hammer to build a beautiful home. Yet, with this same tool, you can smash a hole in the wall when you’re just trying to hang a picture. This is the same tool, but with different users and different outcomes.
This book is meant to be a tool to help you acquire more tools.
Prosperity is not just wealth. A house is a place to share love with your family and friends. A car is a tool that takes you safely from one place to another. Personally, I sometimes even use that car to pray and have alone time with God. These material things are just tools for us to use in order to share our love and to transport us from one idea or one place to another. I don’t feel emotionally tied to these things. I don’t feel we have to have money to be prosperous, though it can make our life more comfortable. The quality and comfort of those items are just neutral details that do not have “good” or “evil” attached. The quality of the tools can affect the outcome. One can have wealth and be very poor in deed without love or a spiritual connection. A beautiful house can be a very lonely, hollow place without love and laughter. I believe it is our birthright to have prosperity in all areas of our lives.\
Some people believe that the law of attraction, using positive, intentional thinking to manifest our desires, is a sin against God. In some religious organizations, “manifest” is considered a bad word. However, this isn’t the case. Bringing God in and using some ancient law of attraction tools, much like a hammer, to help create and set prayer goals can be very effective and helpful to you and your community. In the Gospel of Mark (11:24), it says, “Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you will receive it, and it will be yours.” This verse is asking us to believe in order to receive. What you do with your wealth is a choice.
What Can This Book Do for You?
I have been working on a process for years that helps me set goals, create and manifest my desires, and increase my faith. Some of these tools I have been using most of my life. It is my sincere desire to share what I have learned in order to help you build your prayer life with a few new tools that, when combined with some old tools, will help you create a stronger focus in your life, increase your prosperity, and strengthen your faith. The Bible is full of manifesting tools and ideas that I feel should not be ignored.
This book is meant to be a guide for praying, manifesting, and visualizing. The goal is to help you develop the skills to clarify goals, and then create motivation and clear resistance so you can celebrate your progress. My intention in writing this book is to give you new tools to expand your world. My hope is that you will come away with very specific goals, from deep in your heart, along with plans to fulfill your goals. My desire is for you to see clearly your personal blockages that keep you from achieving your goals for greater comfort in your life. I hope this book gives you a new vision and understanding of how much you are loved by God. I want you to use that information to have what your heart desires. Most of all, I want you to have a clearer understanding that you are not alone. When it comes to having what we want in our lives, there is help available to each of us. I sincerely hope you will call on that help and use it in your day-to-day routine to manifest the best life possible.
At the end of each chapter you will find a “Dig in Deep” section. Think of this as a personal workbook, where you can dig in and explore where you are and where you want to go. This is a mini heart search or journal process. I would suggest using a notebook marked just for this book. You may find that you need some private space to work on these internal questions as you dig in deep.
This book is written in a way so that I can interact with you, the reader, using video clips so you can share in my sources of inspiration. Reading this from a reader or a tablet will give you easy access to the links. If you are reading this in print, you may want to have your smart phone, tablet, or computer ready to fully experience the information. If you don’t roll that way, I have included a summary of each example.
Who is Connie Carbary?
Not everyone is offered a glimpse into the veiled existence of the afterlife. For those chosen few, the wisdom gained can change the course of fate. When I was in the first grade, I had an experience that has stayed with me my whole life. I have been looking at my own life and patterns, and writing about them has led me to a clearer understanding about why I do some of the things I do in my manifestation prayer process. They all point back to this experience. I feel that sharing some of these experiences can help you have a fuller understanding of my process and why my perspective is so different. Perhaps it can give you some inspiration in your own prayer process.
My father died just before my fourth birthday. My mother was three months pregnant with my next-to- youngest brother. I think the trauma of the day stayed with me my whole life. I still remember a man coming to our house and saying, “Kenny has been in a wreck. Get in the car. I’ll take you to the hospital.” My mother said, “I’ll need a car to bring him home,” and so she put me and my brother in the car and sped off to my Aunt Colline’s house. She was dropping my brother and me off for babysitting. I was so upset, I begged my mother until she agreed to let me go with her. My next memory is of the hospital, where there was a woman in a glass information booth. My mother knew this woman and she said my father was there but I couldn’t go in; I had to sit in the waiting room. The lady said she would watch me. All of my grandparents started coming through the waiting room. I asked them to take me with them, but they said, “Stay put.” Somewhere deep inside my little mind, I know something was really wrong. My grandparents did not just run by me normally. My Grandma Fox was really crying. Finally my Grandpa Gard came and got me, and he was crying too. My mother’s father was not one to cry. He just said there was an accident and that my mom would tell me about it. I really knew something was not right. I sat in the car crying but not really knowing why.
My next memory around this time is of my mother lying in bed and crying constantly. She was still pregnant, and we were staying at my grandparents’ home, along with my Uncle Dave, who was fourteen years old. He was always taking care of my brother John and me. We just kept asking, “Where is our daddy? When is he coming to get us?” I remember the answers being, “He is in heaven.”
I still remember the confusion about heaven. I could not understand why my father was in heaven. Where was heaven? Why didn’t my daddy come home?
Fast forward a few years to when I was in the first grade. I had a measles shot, so I’m not really sure how I ended up getting the measles, but I did. I still remember waking up in excruciating pain. There were painful bumps all over my little body, and I was burning up with fever. My mother called the doctor. They said to not bring me in, as the hospital didn’t have an isolation room and they were afraid of having a major outbreak. My fever was really high, so my mother started running cold water in the bathtub and dunking me in. I felt so cold, but my temperature was not falling. My mother wrapped me in a towel and called the doctor.
I passed out.
I still remember this vividly. I went down a tunnel of white light. It felt like a warm tunnel was engulfing me and it felt so good. I was moving in a new way. My body stopped hurting. I felt wonderful. I was warm. The coldness of my shivering body was gone. There was a total lightness of being. I could see my wet body curled up on a towel on the floor below me. The lightness was pulling me in further, but I was happy to go. I could see a man waiting for me and I wanted to go to him. The man was engulfed in white light. He was emitting a feeling of pure love. I knew he really cared for me and wanted to help me. He had stunning brown eyes that were radiating light and all I felt was love. He embraced me and said I was being healed. I asked him if he was Jesus. He said, “No, you can call me Joseph, but Jesus is over there,” and pointed him out to me.
When Joseph pointed to Jesus, I saw Jesus look right at me, and I could feel the healing energy coming from him. There was a group of people around Jesus, and each was emitting a white light. Some people had a very bright strong light and others were dimmer. I could feel the healing energy engulfing me with zero judgment. There was an overwhelming feeling of pure love. Jesus nodded at me in recognition. His eyes were full of blue light. I could see beyond him where there was a great white light and there were beings filled with light before me. There was no pain. No sorrow, just lightness of being. I had a feeling of being home where I belonged. I felt full of happiness.
But, I was being told that I was going to go back.
I told him, “I don’t want to go.” I had a real feeling of coming home, and I felt safe, warm and full of love.
Jesus said, “You will get to come back. There are three other times that have been agreed upon that you get to choose to come back. Now is not one of them. You still have work to do. There are things you are going to accomplish. They cannot be done here. We are going to be with you the whole time.”
I was not thrilled to be going back. Joseph understood. With warmth and love he said, “I want you to know that you are not going to be alone. Everyone here is following you and supporting you. You can always pray, and that communication will always be heard and answered.”
I was shown a vision of how we are all connected through God. He lives in each one of us. In my vision, there was a silvery blue light ball. It was beautiful, glowing and pulsing. It was alive. The light was beaming on everything. The light was the source of all there is. It had streams of light that were like beautiful strands that were connecting us all to the God source. It was surging through each of us as light beings. There were people that were closer to the source and their light glow was stronger. There were people further away with a dimmer light strand. Dimmer, yet it was still there. It was pulsing through each soul and connecting all of us. The people closer to the source were having their light strengthened from the connections ahead of them, as well as the source, and they in turn were lighting the connection behind them. It was like a beautiful silvery blue wave of a light stream. This silvery blue light was creating a big energy exchange network. We are all being connected through the light source of God that is in us and in others.
I was shown a vision of a large crowd of people. Joseph told me, “You are going to help a lot of people. You are not finished with your plan.”
Next, I woke up in my body and I told my mother that I saw Jesus. My mother was still on the phone with the doctor and looked so upset. I told her, “Jesus healed me.” She was not amused. She told the doctor I was incoherent. There was talk about brain damage. But then she took my temperature and saw that it had dropped. The doctor was going to call back. She turned her full attention to me and said, “Do not tell anyone that you have seen Jesus.” The doctor called back, they set up a room. My fever had dropped and I was feeling much better.
I spent the next two weeks in my dark bedroom with the shades drawn, isolated from my brothers. There was fear that, if you were exposed to light when you had the measles, your eye sight would be damaged. So, I wasn’t allowed to read (I love reading. Even at this age, this was a hard fate.) or watch TV. My brothers had all had the measles immunizations, but they were not sure they had worked since my immunization hadn’t. I had a lot of time to think about heaven. I realized this was where my father had gone. I finally understood why he couldn’t be with us with us. My perception of this world had changed. I knew my father was and is in a warm, light-filled place, overflowing with love. I also knew that my soul was not my body. I knew that when my body was gone, my soul would still be alive. When my on time on this earth is done, I will continue my work, only in a different form and with different tools.
I do not believe that God is a damning, judging presence. When I was in heaven, I only experienced love, warmth, and healing. Though our paths are all different and our uniqueness is apparent, I understood that we are all connected. The light is available in each of us. It is here to help us. The love that we have for ourselves and each other increases our light. This love strengthens and increases our ability to flow easily and freely in our life’s journey. This love is the source of all creation. This is the God I know. My thoughts concerning what it means to be a good person were changed. According to the Bible we are God’s children. You do not stop loving your children no matter what they have done. This is how I experience that God feels about us. There is only help and love.
When I was in sixth grade, my grandmother had cancer and was fighting for her life. I started spending the summers with my grandparents. My home life had become difficult and abusive and the time I spent in Kansas with my extended family was a refuge. One day my grandmother was teaching me to sew. We were cutting out a pattern on the floor and she leaned over and said, “Connie, I have been really sick. At one point during surgery, I could have died.” She said, “I was given a choice. I could go to the other side or I could come back and help you.”
At that, I was filled with emotion. I said, “We all need you.”
She said, “no, I came back for you.”
I started crying.
I knew where she had been and she knew where I had been. I understood that she had been given a choice. I had been in that same place on the other side, and though I was told I didn’t have a choice, I knew how badly I wanted to stay on the other side. So I understood how hard that choice must have been for my grandmother. I came to understand that my near death experience was real. It wasn’t a just a high fever like my mother had told me. The kind souls on the other side knew I needed help, and they sent my grandmother back to help me. She lived until I was a freshman in high school. I spent every summer with my grandparents up until my grandmother died, and it made all the difference in my life. Thank you, God.
I have had my struggles and lost hope, but I was given the chance to see we are all connected to each other and to God. I know for sure that Jesus is real and working on the other side. When I thought it might not have been real, God sent my grandmother reassure me. I know for a fact that there are spirits on the other side that want to help us in love and joy. I am one hundred percent sure that our prayers are heard and answered. I know God will send us help when we really need it. I know that, when our bodies are gone, we will have everlasting life. Our work will continue on the other side, in a different form.
Tools for Everyday Use
My childhood experience gave me unique tools that I use every single day. With this book, I am opening my toolbox and sharing in order to help build an inspired community.
My childhood was full of an extensive Bible education going to an elementary and high school that required an hour of Bible study a day, with regular tests and three visits to church each week. I also went to a Bible college that required chapel everyday and Bible classes. I may have had more Bible training than some ministers.
I accept God as the one source for everything I am and everything I have. My experience of heaven combined with my Bible training gave me a unique perspective. I really felt the Bible was saying a lot of things about prosperity. I want to show how my experiences in my early childhood gave me a fresh perspective on the teaching of the Bible. In heaven I learned about the overflowing abundance of love, that prayers are heard, and how we are all connected. We are not separate from God. He lives in us. We are not alone.
We all have dreams that are planted deep in our soul. I know they are planted within us by God. When I was on the other side, I saw some of the seeds that were planted in my soul. I see so many people afraid to bring these dreams, seeds of light, out of the darkness and to grow them in the light of God. I have had these same fears. But these hopes and dreams are there for a reason. Why judge them? Why not start to acknowledge them? For me, I knew that one of the seeds planted within me was the desire to help a lot of people. I hope this book can help you start to manifest the seeds of your wildest, most deep-seated wishes, no matter how far-fetched or crazy they may seem. Nothing is impossible. A couple of decades ago, we would have all thought the Internet was a crazy idea. That goes to show that the road blocks you create are mainly fictional. They are not really there. God can open up paths to make anything happen when it is for your highest good. According to the Bible, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed you can move mountains. Let’s get started on moving the mountains. Have some faith; you and God can make it happen. You won’t be alone. There will be help.